Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

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Heart into Heart

Light into Light
Darkness into Darkness
Mind into Mind
Soul into Soul

Feelings hidden
Emotions concealed
Fortress after fortress
Defence of the heart

Shrouded thoughts
Veil of secrecy
Game after game
Unknown to the world

Twisted and tortured
Desperately seeking
Time after time
Wings of refuge

Light into Light
Darkness into Darkness
Self into Self
Heart into Heart

Written by:
MagMJ
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regarding how to interpret “Heart into Heart”

I wrote “Heart into Heart” during a period of time in December 2005 when I was feeling very small and alone in this world. I would go and watch a sad movie all on my own and then come home, sit on my bed and look out through the bedroom window while listening to sad songs. I don’t quite know where my loneliness came from, but I guess I woke up one day, realized that my best friend had died three years ago, that people were losing their humanity, and that I had given up trying to make a difference because the world couldn’t care less. Since that period, I have recovered from my utter depression, but still feel that dull ache of loneliness on a regular basis. The poem is generally free for the readers to interpret it and all the better if they can identify themselves with that state of despair and alienation. I just want to let all those who read the poem know that they’re not alone in feeling lonely and that they loneliness only serves to make them stronger emotionally and spiritually. I hope that all the lonely souls out there will be able to fill the void spaces in them like I managed to, but never forget the tug of loneliness at the heartstrings so that they can look back and see how far they’ve come and how much they’ve grown and matured.

MagMJ

 

Chasing Suns

My poem is entitled Chasing Suns and I wrote it shortly after my girlfriend broke up with me… She was my first love and is still my only love… It’s almost been eight months since she left me and I’m still madly in love… It’s really no fun :-\ anyway, here is my poem.
i hope you find some meaning in my words.

Chasing Suns
by: Lee Mintz

There exists a home

in a land undefined

By word nor by sound

a lost page of blank line

And though I may dwell

in its spacious confine

It’s a torturous existence

without your home next to mine

This landscape bleeds emotion

pools raindrops obscene

It grows salted and withered

its wounds grow unseen

I froze fast in your fire

wandered lost in between

My sweet darling ember

and our horizon pristine

Darkness descends tearing sleepless asunder

bringing a beating heart still

An infant still lives fading faster toward slumber

under walls of concrete will

No one tear shall flow from this sorrow

chasing endless suns of sanguine spill

I now live lifeless life borrowed

keeping pace with harsh words

“the end, until…”

there it is
every single line has relation to something she and I did together, something she said to me, characteristics of her, or something that happened between us and i feel that this is my best poetic work to date. i hope you agree.

 

Change

A day and a night to talk me out of my reverie
Some simple lies that help me breathe
A clearer path to make me see
A look at the madness living within me

Happiness is all I want
Care is all I need
I just meant to vent some frustration
Getting a few to bend knee

I might have gone too far
I can’t say I miss her
She just wasn’t me

As I slip into this dark abyss
Fear me now, this is not who I’m meant to be
Care you not of my condition?
I would not heed thee

Haven’t you ever felt this way?
So used and torn
All you can do to stay one way

I don’t want to do it
I’m ready to change

So take me out of this torture
Relieve me of this pain
All I need is a little hope now
A light to guide my way

by Prozac


Insomnia

Sleep, come soothe my broken world

But I know, you won’t visit me when you’re told

Come sleep of my childhood

When hours on end

Up on trees, on mountains, in fileds

With friends I spent.

Even then, they were the birds,

they were books, beloved

flowers, and vampires from old folk tales

and countless dreams

of how my world could be.

Now time, continuous, lingers by

Dripping its course with venom

Numbing the soul and desire.

I fall in the vastness of the universe

Not shining as a star

But sinking in a black hole

Of forgetfullness,

Remembering all.

Tortured by night and by day

Wondering who am I.

A collection of talents and university degrees and post degrees?

A mirror shows me

a picture of someone familiar.

who is it?

Still a child, singing itself to the sleep that won’ t come.

Is it exile from my land?

no, an exile from the living.

A connection broken

Long before I was born.

An exile in time, a desert of mind.

So much to know, so much to do

Yet I fret, give up.

In the wee hours

everything i let unravel,

all becomes loose ends

Going nowhere.

It begins to dawn

Morning light of no hope

that the new day could bring.

only the infinity of this void that so terribly stings.

the night that joins the day,

and another night and day.

Endless cycle of desolation

and despair.

Come sleep.

 

Beautiful

They say it is beautiful

this country, the people,

why don’t I have eyes to see?

yet sometimes i glimpse it,

a rare comet burning

so quick to disappear.

Feelings of yearning

Pain left behind

the sparks of this

astral trail.

 

Adriana (Romania-Australia)