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The Vampire Shadow

This road filled with iron tears

Constant companion

Yearning on a level untold

Faith in the purpose of life, shaken to its core

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Breathing air that only serves to torment

Poking a sharp knife in the heart of a tender life

Words that strangle hearts, like vines and a bitter cage

Fervent attempts at a connection

In a far away, heart wrenching land

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An evil word, supposedly beneficial

The closeness of true warmth and love

Never realized

Instincts and desires that are questioned

Like so many millions fragments of splintered ice

Beautiful in their design Sinister in their intent

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Pictures on a glowing plane

Beckoning, like some miraculous lighthouse

Nervousness and sweat that let me know

What is in my heart is real

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Dark grey skies of winter

Wretched and torn

But it is all it knows

Head in hands, face down on the floor

I can see you standing there

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Days of twisted hope, in some limitless vacuum

Thoughts of you make me realize

Of how far I really have to go

Not only in distance, but in some realm that only I can know

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A flower, found in an unsuspecting manner

Drawing me in with luscious nectar

But now, I seek refuge and sanctuary

From thoughts that injure

In darkness and silence, I find my only friend

And friend is a word that can tear out a soul

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This poem is about a special girl tha lives in Romania. I had met her through chatting on the net, but never in person. I have talked with her on the phone as well. I have had a very tough time in comprehending the fact that this person is real. I live in the US, so it is hard for us to meet. I just know that I have been wanting her badly, and not being able to meet her for real caused me a lot of heartache. I think this poem captures the way I felt.

I still miss her badly.

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Soledade

I’m taking a Sunday walk on an empty road

the celebrated sun pushes from behind

my shadow stretches a mile long before me

I am not lost in thought I just walk

carelessly kicking pebbles and stones along the way

As if they were the scattered letters of individual words

of broken sentences from the answers I

have not heeded and now in my greatest need

They are just so much dust and gravel to scuff my shoes

stones to skip across the lake and boulders to build a cairn

for some-one who may or may not one-day wonder

for at least a solitary moment

about the one who has taken the time and trouble

to use these wasted answers and all these

discarded dreams to build a monument of rubble

that has no meaning that doesn’t do anything.

But when my own shadow is as my betrothed

my shade likened to a lover, there it is

my reflection has become my sole companion

everywhere I go

I have grown to detest my own wearisome caress

How I despise what my flesh must accept as pleasure

For one alone who has fallen falls and falls so foul so low

with no others arms to reach out and catch them

so lost so craven where there is no care to soften

When the tongue has become torn in ragged bloody shreds

From pleading imploring beseaching using every possible word

Or combination therein in every language ever spoken by man

Asking whatever power there is that may govern

To bring whom I have proven so worthy of over and over

Yet alone here

I

stand

There is not gold enough from ten thousand rainbows

Nor any answers from the mysterys of the secrets of the ages

that could possibly have any value

No!

Nor could mean a god damned thing to me!

 

© m e m/ 2001/ QuickSand Ballet

 

Exile

With our hearts wrapped in Saran-
Are we here to hear hollow words
or sincere verbs taking flight to fan the silence?
damn the silence!
as it smothers the violence of a ghost locked and chained
in solitude engaged in caged enraged soliloquy
the words reaching out like desperate hands
gnarled and grasping for even the lightest featherlike touch
well deep within digital prisons
snarling and gasping across chasms from our telephones
too afraid of voices making us three dimensional
intentional connection scares us crawling back into the void
avoidance fits us so well
well worn torn and wholly alone
©M E M/ 2001/ Space Faktory Musick/
 Random Axe of Blindness/QueerNotions/
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Change

A day and a night to talk me out of my reverie
Some simple lies that help me breathe
A clearer path to make me see
A look at the madness living within me

Happiness is all I want
Care is all I need
I just meant to vent some frustration
Getting a few to bend knee

I might have gone too far
I can’t say I miss her
She just wasn’t me

As I slip into this dark abyss
Fear me now, this is not who I’m meant to be
Care you not of my condition?
I would not heed thee

Haven’t you ever felt this way?
So used and torn
All you can do to stay one way

I don’t want to do it
I’m ready to change

So take me out of this torture
Relieve me of this pain
All I need is a little hope now
A light to guide my way

by Prozac


Broken Heart

I can’t take this anymore
Its tearing me up inside
Cause you wouldn’t tell me why
So you remained a constant thought throughout my days

I hate that you are doing this
I saw you do it before
I won’t let this happen to us
You can’t push me away

You have already torn my heart in two
The damage is done
Does this even hurt you
Or will this go right through

The loneliness I fear
Is starting to draw near
Can’t be sure how I will deal
Or how this loneliness will feel

All my hopes and dreams
Have been washed away
Into a rapid flowing red stream
Created by the bleeding of my broken heart

You said yourself we could last forever
And now you can’t even see us together
I do not blame you nor am I mad
For it was I who gave his heart with no shield

I talked about our future
Only because that’s where we were headed
We talked about our past
And realized why others didn’t last

I couldn’t tell you what the future would hold
You claimed to be afraid of the unknown
But I wasn’t given the chance to ease your fears
Which is why I have begun to shed these tears

I only want you to be happy
If you can’t be happy with me then I will have to respect that
I was afraid of my heart being broken and now it has come true
I just never thought the breaking of my heart would come from you