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Without

Niser 11

How can nothingness fill you up so much,
if it is nothing  then you should feel nothing.
Yet some how I feel it,
it is a constant pain through out my body
a constant dull hollowness that is with me even in my happy times.
An overwhelming sense of solitude.
I haven’t asked for a lot I certainty don’t except it
yet I wait
hopefully
only to see the same door closed right before my eyes
again
I’m not good enough
not worthy enough
… not enough

too much
why keep trying it only adds more nothing to my already aching emptiness…
Just to be held,
is that a lot to want,
gently hold my face . . .to be looked in the eyes.
To bring that special smile to someone’s face that only a lover can bring.
To be the most important person to just one other person.

Not a lot.

But it is just over there  . .I can see it . I just can’t get a grip on it.
It’s never for me
It is for so many others
I tell my self it will come. I’m I lying to even myself.
What do I lack.

I wasn’t even there you know
my body,
maybe even my mind
but my soul . .no not my soul.
Not that you missed it. . . they never have
…what scares me is they never will
sometimes, very rare but it has been none to happen . .
just a glimpse has made its way through, I wonder if the difference has even
been noticed by you or him.
I shift my eyes so you can’t see me . . .did you see . . .did you look . .
.did it scare you
it scares me
such confusion lies within in me
to long for something with everything in you
but to be so scared of it actually coming to be
some where
I have to believe he is somewhere
he who can take away my fear
he who’s eyes will tell me what my heart needs to feel
I’ll never hurt you
I’ll never leave you
always stay faithful
please . . .strike me before you lay with another
for a my flesh will heal
I know my soul would not
security
content ness . . .
to lay in your arms and feel love, and to feel safe
to feel beautiful in your eyes
to feel.

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I love you

But you don’t even know me

you can’t even see me

you will never say my name

but you have caused me so much pain

always in vain I’m praying that just maybe you will call

but you never do

just once to say I love you

I pray so much so I can say I love you too

 

God send me an angel to heal my broken heart,

and my tired soul. I was not meant to be alone

God please send me an angel to save me from my self

I am stuck in my own private hell locked up in this cell of loneliness

Send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes and to change my life

 

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All the time I face the walls
Looking for someone, looking for company
But all I got was careless souls
Shattered dreams have gone and passed
To leave me in my lonesome fast
No friend’s laughter to cheer me up
No sparkle in my face when I look it up.
Coldness and sorrow is all around
To give me the friend I never found.
But sometimes I wonder why
For all this time I never die
For I am alone
Comfortless and cold
To be in here in my lonesome hole.

 

 

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The passion is gone
it’s gone  all gone
there’s nothing left inside

only loneliness

Walking death

Life with no soul

Kevin

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Though many people surrounding me,
Nobody really understood inside of me.
I hear many people talking,
but I’m waiting for one voice that is still.
I put on a smiling and joyful face,
nobody could see the uncovered me.
I do not want sympathy,
I want understanding.
Who could really understand what is inside of me?
My soul is so broken,
Who can see it?
It is tearing me apart,
as though I am walking in a torn forest..
All I need is just one FRIEND
to understand me, inside.
I don’t want to be alone anymore, it’s killing me inside out.