What can I do when the silence sets in
So deafening I can hear my heart beat
Its more frightening than it has ever been
Once again I retreat
From life, filled with shame and a tear
Needing a hug a friendly face, a smile
Needing someone near
Even if it’s only for a while
I shout Hey I’m nice, loving and kind !
Nobody’s listens and even the silence is too loud
So what’s the point of trying to find
A place to belong, to feel proud
Of who I am and how far I have come
The highest of hills and the deepest of seas
Impossible to imagine for some
That I did it all, survived, with ease
But the price I pay is steep
Lost myself, but make others smile
Me, the fighter, inside I weep
Longing to belong, if only for a while
I despise the silence but it comforts me as well
Safe from hurt, I ignore the chains
And the emptiness, no one can tell
That I feel this way, that the longing remains
Why can’t they see that I’m good and loving and kind ?
I guess it’s me who blocks their view
The one thing I’m looking for I can’t seem to find
What the Hell am I going to do ??
I open doors and lead the way
To my heart, my soul , me !
But no one never seems to stay
I look around , no one I see
I must be doing something wrong
To end up in the place I am
Too difficult , too weak, too strong?
I’m trying the best I can
To make others stay, to show I care
It works for a while and I am free!
But when I look again, nobody’s there
Yeah, it’s my fault I guess, it must be………