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Poems of the Lonely

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Wild Flower

you are the one who makes me feel so happy
you are the one who makes me feeling easy
you are the one who brought my life this crazy

you are the one who left me finally…

as the trees grow so wildly
as the rainbow colors bring you so lovely
here with me you’ll be in my memory
like a dream how much you mean to me..

yesterday was a big big joy to me
like a clouds filled with comfort to me
yesterday was so lucky and full of beauty
like a lucky charm that’s what you are to me.

go and find your own destiny
let the sun shines you gracefully
go and live your life happily
and let us be in your shadow as you
grow maturely….

 

What Happened?

Always out there, always popular
Always had friends, always with a partner.
One marriage but what was love?
Another marriage and I had it for real
Then she went and found it with another.

My soul mate next but I couldn’t escape
The ravages of my childhood…Nor she
as we loved and lost and fell apart
time and time again.
For she was the one.
Now she’s gone too, and happy like all the rest.
After me they always do best.

Meeting new people, going out now.
Singles scene, not for me, but what else?
The process helps but can’t fill the hole within.
They care but I feel nothing.
What should I feel?
How do you feel?
Who to talk to?
Brother, Mother. They stuffed my head.
Father wonderful, but now he’s dead.

Now it’s just me and my new shadows.
Lurking, silent, unrelenting, cold and draining.
They follow me everywhere, They’re always there
I can no longer hide. When will they go?
But I have my kids, although they’ll never know.
So far so good, they haven’t seen through my faces
My smile manufactured when I take them places.

I’ve done my dash, I had my chances
Just never meant to be, for me.
I see now that the kind of happiness I’ve always dream of
was only meant for others.
And so many others
What happened to me?

Goodbye D
Goodbye J
Goodbye K
I envy your happiness.

 

Invisible Man

I walk by

I see you

You see me

A glance is exchanged

I quickly hide

You don’t know me

And I might not even cross your mind

But I would give you the world

Who am I you ask?

I am a shadow

To you I don’t even exist

I am nothing but The Invisible Man

 

By Angel of Mons

 

Hoping, but Always Denied

Too often so isolated

Abandoned in a void of pain and despair

Without a sense of being wanted

By anyone at all out there

 

A desire for companionship so strong

Striving to embrace some future shining sun

Yet no one lovely did ever come along

That would want and provide one

 

No one to call upon in times of great need

Like a single bent tree in strong winds having grown

A rose bed of love now just full of weeds

Never really having been properly sown

 

No one special with which to share wealth obtained

An absence of kind words and a warm embrace

A shirt dark, wet and stained

By trails of tears falling from one’s face

 

A dark figure of dread casting their shadow,

Over one’s existence and place

Marching with time’s relentless flow,

Withering away one’s will at pace

 

All from a sad and lonely heart

 

–          WW, 2010

 

One Last Everything

I’m falling,
Falling into an abysm,
Falling through shadows,
Through darkness,
Through anger,
Through pain;
Falling into the consuming flames of doubt.

The coldness keeps me alive,
Alive when I’m wishing I was dead.
One last breath of hope
Lifts me over the mist.

The past now gone,
Gone with the happiness, the joy.
The future lies just a minute away.
A minute away from loneliness,
Just a minute away from death.

No more sadness,
No more sorrow,
No more problems,
No more life.

One last goodbye,
One last smile,
One last tear,
One last love,
One last everything.

by Andrea Fernández