Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

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Poems by Lori Kay

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For so long I wander, lost to myself in the forest of Life.

It is a rather panicked way of life.

Have you ever searched for your Self so?

For so long I sit perplexed at the table of Life where lay the puzzle pieces of Me.

It is a rather frustrating way of Life.

“This puzzle must have come to me with the wrong pieces,” I cry aloud so many times.

Have you ever been so perplexed over Who you are – inside and out?

For so long am I hungry to use the ‘stuff’ inside me.

It is a rather lonely and unsatisfied way of life.

“To hunger for use and to never to be used is the worse hunger of all.” (author unknown)

Have you ever been so hungry?

Oh for the day,

I find myself and my insides become calm, I become faith-full on the path.

I make great progress on the puzzle of me; enlightened at the table.

I am filled, the ache of disuse abated.
From that day forward,

I take each step with dignity, calm and content in the forest.

I connect each puzzle piece with patience, uplifted at the table.

I apply with privilege the genuineness of me, satisfied with the ‘stuff.’
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Lori Kay, 2010

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When the struggle to survive is over

And you’re left alone to redefine yourself

Where does the definition come from?

When the struggle to survive is over

And you’re left with a certain kind of emptiness and calm

Where does the reason come from?

When you no longer have to fight to push your body and mind through each moment

Where does the fight go?

When the struggle to survive is over

And you can finally breakdown and cry

What will stop the tears?

When the struggle to survive is over

And you finally let down the anger you held so long

What do you hold now?

When the struggle to survive is over

And the fear that fueled your inner fire is snuffed out

Where does the flame come from?

When the struggle to survive is over

And adrenalin and cortisol no longer run through you every minute, every hour, of every day

And your body comes to a complete stand still, a fall down and stay down

What will bring it back up again?

When the struggle to survive is over

And fight or flight becomes stay and love

And you’re left with a sadness undefined

Where does the happiness meet up with you?

Lori Kay, 2009

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Breath of Darkness

It never seems that i’ll get a break
from the sadness that fills my life
always falling even further than before
when i thought i couldn’t drowned any more
gasping for air I search to find my soul
surrounded by nothing and reaching for something
but there is no search light to help me see
maybe it’s because there is nothing there for me
loneliness seems to be the only thing in store for me

I’m drifting through the sea of darkness
drowning and clawing out at nothingness
dreaming of better days that never come
remembering past lives that came undone
unglued and lost pieces of a puzzle
a picture of a perfect life fades away

I sleep and i dream of nightmares
to wake up to a living hell
surrounded by mistakes and lies i tell
myself it will be ok even though
I know that nothingness will evoke my
soul
again

a life preserver is nowhere in sight
so i take a deep breath of darkness
and i drowned to feel something