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Poems by JD

Gray Death
The warm colors of fall have faded
Now the death of winter has raided
The first flakes begin to fall
I hardly notice them at all
White tears falling down from the sky
Why, oh why do the Angels cry?
Can they see through the sky so white,
The pain that plagues day and night?
“This gray death shall consume us all,”
On the icey winds the Angels do call
So as your body begins to numb,
From your mouth a white fog will hum
A piece of your soul on Angels’ wings will fly
Leaving your body behind to die.
Whispers of the Wind
All has come to twilight
Soon the fallow of night
But still I waited
Breath baited
Answers, the Wind does hold
Secrets untold
I hear its beckoning when the darkness falls
“Pain” are its calls
The Whispering Wind has long since faded
But here I stay, breath baited
The Sea
I don’t care what you say
Your words like pebbles thrown into the sea
Washed away
They didn’t even touch me
Lost into the shadows below
Settling as far down as they can go
To far to swim, you should know
But down to the bottom and back I go
Try me
Others took their hit
They made a puddle a sea
That’s what I make of it
Back down, but others will come
The sea will condemn them foe or friend
Some pebbles will join the others… some
Untouchable, I will remain, until the end
Phantom Father
You danced through my childhood, ghostly
Memories of you, I never had
You wish you were there, regrettably
You my Phantom Father
I learned to do without
I never felt sad
Unwanted love you sent about
You my Phantom Father
Now your back to make things “right”
Like a cow to the slaughter, you fallow the latest fad
I never needed you to tuck me in at night
You my Phantom Father
Give up the fight
You want a second chance, sorry but too bad
Your time has come to twilight
You my Phantom Father
Give me peace, now is the end
I’m sorry if I made you sad
All your love back to you I send
Goodbye to you,
My Phantom Father
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The Air is Stagnant

The air is stagnant
My heart is numb
My eyes are loosing their sight
I can’t hear the world around me
My spirit is not to be found

I wake up each day with no thoughts
I walk through each day, heartless and mad
I sing only sad songs
My melody is stuck on one note.

Heartache and headache are my friend
With out them I would be alone
I cry out to find new companions
No one wants to be with heartache
Headache is a nuisance.

My nest has chains, and barbwire
To leave is as painful as to stay
To start over again, to rebuild my soul
A new beginning to a past
I will carry that book from now to forever
To lose that memory would be a blessing in disguise.

 

Love One Last Time

All I want is a sign of kindness and love,
But all I get are mean looks.
It hurts so bad that everywhere I go,
Hoping to be accepted,
I get rejected.
They all look at me the same way,
With eyes full of contempt and resentment
But maybe I deserve what I get
For being a cruel, cold person
I drove everyone away from me,
But only lately have I realized that they were never really there for me,
Each one had hidden intentions,
All meant to sacrifice me-
I feel so empty and numb,
So lonely and dejected
Everyone says they love me,
But I know better than to believe them
Broken promises and rushed lies,
To cover up their faults,
And I stand here,
With my heart in my hands
Bleeding, nearly dead,
Yet how is it that I’m willing to let it get broken again?
I know it won’t survive another wound,
So how is it that with you
I’m willing to take that chance,
When I’m pretty sure I won’t survive the fall?
So much pain,
Leaving me numb,
My heart shuts down
Yet I’m able to love again
Will you be the on to show me what I truly want?
Will you help me soar or let me fall?
Will you be there forever or for just 10 seconds?
I’m terrified to love again…to let my heart open up,
But I don’t want to miss…all that I could spend with you…
No, even if it doesn’t work out,
It won’t be time gone to waste,
For I learned to love…
…One…last…time…

Shadow’s Death

Insomnia

Sleep, come soothe my broken world

But I know, you won’t visit me when you’re told

Come sleep of my childhood

When hours on end

Up on trees, on mountains, in fileds

With friends I spent.

Even then, they were the birds,

they were books, beloved

flowers, and vampires from old folk tales

and countless dreams

of how my world could be.

Now time, continuous, lingers by

Dripping its course with venom

Numbing the soul and desire.

I fall in the vastness of the universe

Not shining as a star

But sinking in a black hole

Of forgetfullness,

Remembering all.

Tortured by night and by day

Wondering who am I.

A collection of talents and university degrees and post degrees?

A mirror shows me

a picture of someone familiar.

who is it?

Still a child, singing itself to the sleep that won’ t come.

Is it exile from my land?

no, an exile from the living.

A connection broken

Long before I was born.

An exile in time, a desert of mind.

So much to know, so much to do

Yet I fret, give up.

In the wee hours

everything i let unravel,

all becomes loose ends

Going nowhere.

It begins to dawn

Morning light of no hope

that the new day could bring.

only the infinity of this void that so terribly stings.

the night that joins the day,

and another night and day.

Endless cycle of desolation

and despair.

Come sleep.

 

Beautiful

They say it is beautiful

this country, the people,

why don’t I have eyes to see?

yet sometimes i glimpse it,

a rare comet burning

so quick to disappear.

Feelings of yearning

Pain left behind

the sparks of this

astral trail.

 

Adriana (Romania-Australia)