Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

Tag Archives: love

Poems by DT

Where are you, love?

Where are you, love?

I’ve been looking for you everywhere

Even crossed the world to be with you

Thought I finally met you there

Instead you broke my heart in two

I was hurt beyond compare

And finally left in despair

Where in the world must I go now

Til I can finally find you?

Where are you, love?

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Dear Lord

Dear Lord,

I’m at the end of the road

Here I am again, as always

Somehow I’ve managed to lose my ways

I’m all alone and feeling lonely

That makes my life completely empty

Without my husband nor a friend

Feel there’s no one I can depend

I see my world without future

Just hanging on like this is torture

For I have nothing to look forward

Body and soul completely battered

Dear Lord, oh my sweet dear Lord

In this world so full of hate and discord

Please hear me cry out in agony

And help me out of my misery

Memories

Memories flow like butterflies. They pass by quietly, take me by surprise. Our wedding day, the trip together, our first love nest. Watching you leave me in the cold morning with a kiss. What a pleasure, did you know I used to watch you through my window until you disappeared? I think you knew because you would wave at the air. I would wait for your return smelling like roses and with a home cook meal.  I was pregnant! a surprise our first son what a joy!. He was perfect and full of energy. I loved you so much, but I didn’t know what love was until we parted. you with another wife and me with another man. What happened to us?.  What kind of pain was that.

I never been the same, never will. This loneliness is killing me. You will always be, my first love my only love. Years passed and it still hurts to think about our life together and how happy and perfect it was. I pray for you every night and for me. I need to find peace in this life without you or your love. To make peace with loneliness.

I look at my reflection in the mirror of time and I’m slowly dying with sadness and regrets. Nobody loves me, nobody wants me, I’m a shadow, a ghost, I go unnoticed and ignored. The world goes on without me like I never existed, why is loneliness so cruel.

I will love you forever and after death. I will give half my life for your embrace. My body craves your arms around me, to hug me, comfort me and dry my tears. I need your embraced now and forever.

Slither

A fictitious face.

A muscle ache,

with each smile.

Debilitating the soul with no disgrace, God, don’t let this effect my child.

 

It slowly slithers into life.

That evil little devil!

Consuming the soul with one huge bite. Taking us to unknown levels.

 

Hidden stomach knots.

So twisted I can be…so I’ve learned.

Oh, How I once was….so hot I burned.

Oh, how the tables turn.

 

How I envy thee.

Mother, Father, Sisters and Brothers.

Being his She,

Showing the world how your lovers.

 

A numbing venom for the love of “life”. Making it harder to fight it.

A funny thing, that life.

Some can’t handle it

And prefer to bite it.

 

It’s grip constricting and choking,

Consuming the soul more so than body.

I will keep it from showing,

Escaping to my world of being naughty.

 

Oh how I imagine a life that’s not mine.

Hoping one day it will manifest.

Telling everyone I’m just fine.

I “really” do love the sunshine!

Acting normal just like the rest.

How are you? I’m just fine!

At my best.

 

A fictitious face.

A muscle ache, with each smile.

Debilitating the soul with no disgrace, God, don’t let this effect my child.

 

-Lisa at California

 

Just wrote about how I tend to hide the extreme sadness that loneliness brings.

I’m not terrible looking. I once was considered a social butterfly and always had people around. Somewhere that changed. I know now that I have had close friends that have gone through the same experience. Never told a soul.  I have no family. But I have my daughter. And I hope to fight it for her.  And hope she isn’t affected in the future.

Other People’s Lives

And when someone talks about their children

The things they did that weekend

They played or cried or were told off

I smile

Inside I die

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Then someone mentions their holiday plans

Pack up the kids and the other half

Get away for some family fun

I give a smile

But I feel like a shut in

Inside I die

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Then someone talks about their exciting love life

Date upon date

Week after week a new man from the net

“You’ve got to get on and find a woman” they say

I’ve tried and I’m not wanted

Inside I die

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Then a girl talks about trying to see her boyfriend

The effort she makes to see him

The travel for the long distance relationship

That’s great and I smile

Will anyone make an effort for me?

Inside I die

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Then someone talks about their abuse

The violence, fear and cheating

The years it’s been going on

I’m not like that

So much for being a nice guy

Inside I die

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When the unpleasant, dickish and annoying

Talk about their lives

They have children, husbands or wives

The worst find and keep someone

And I’m forever alone

Inside I die

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My explanation. I can go through all this in one day. It makes me feel so empty. I feel my life has been wasted. I feel I’m rubbish. How undesirable must I be if those people from the last two verses get partners?

Loneliness

Loneliness is a place,
a realm of nowhere.
It is a room with no exits,
no sounds,
no life.

Loneliness is a belief.
No one cares for me.
No one knows me.
What is wrong with me?
Why should I go on?
Why should I even try?

Loneliness is a siren
calling you sweetly,
Hearken to the call
and fall into oblivion.
Firmness and denial
the long road out to freedom.

I have heard that siren.
Heard the deceptive music.
Walked the paths of heartache.
Faced blissful oblivion

And I have fought that madness!
Stepped off the brink of darkness
and sought the way to freedom,
that lead out to light and love.

 

Copyright © 2011 by Athena C. Beauchamp