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Lonelier Now

I’m lonelier now than I’ve ever been before

yet everything is back to normal.

but now I know that I’ll never be with you

and my heart is dying, slowly, slowly, slower than everything

my soul is hiding behind it’s own shadow

and I am lying dead on the street

you were the one that I loved, or so I thought

I’m lying drowned in a pool of tears

don’t leave no one can die from a broken heart,

because i did, my body is still here

my mind is here to but what’s the use

my heart and soul are dead, shot, forgotten

all by loves twisted since of humor. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m sorry

I couldn’t live as friends. now I pay the price

but did you have to do me this way, painful and cruel

or could you have let me down easy so I had a chance to come back

I don’t trust anymore. because I trusted you

and trusting you led me to my death

so I live alone, un-trusting, cold and bitter

but you will never know it was all because of you so what good is it, what does it matter it doesn’t anymore,

but you do know that we will never be the same again

and that is all you will know

~Dan

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What Happened?

Always out there, always popular
Always had friends, always with a partner.
One marriage but what was love?
Another marriage and I had it for real
Then she went and found it with another.

My soul mate next but I couldn’t escape
The ravages of my childhood…Nor she
as we loved and lost and fell apart
time and time again.
For she was the one.
Now she’s gone too, and happy like all the rest.
After me they always do best.

Meeting new people, going out now.
Singles scene, not for me, but what else?
The process helps but can’t fill the hole within.
They care but I feel nothing.
What should I feel?
How do you feel?
Who to talk to?
Brother, Mother. They stuffed my head.
Father wonderful, but now he’s dead.

Now it’s just me and my new shadows.
Lurking, silent, unrelenting, cold and draining.
They follow me everywhere, They’re always there
I can no longer hide. When will they go?
But I have my kids, although they’ll never know.
So far so good, they haven’t seen through my faces
My smile manufactured when I take them places.

I’ve done my dash, I had my chances
Just never meant to be, for me.
I see now that the kind of happiness I’ve always dream of
was only meant for others.
And so many others
What happened to me?

Goodbye D
Goodbye J
Goodbye K
I envy your happiness.

 

Stuck

by Marky Mark
Stuck here nowhere to go,

Stuck here nowhere to hide,

Stuck here felling so low,

Stuck here lost all my pride.

 

Stuck here Pretending to smile,

Stuck here forcing a grin,

Stuck here gonna be for a while,

Stuck here holding it in.

 

Stuck here they broke my spirit,

Stuck here they broke my heart,

Stuck here starting to fear it,

Stuck here falling apart.

 

Stuck here all on my own,

Stuck here no one to hold,

Stuck here feeling alone,

Stuck here ready to fold.

 

Stuck here trying so hard,

Stuck here just wanna fit,

stuck here permanently scarred,

Stuck here until i quit.

 

I Sit Alone

Smiles you always see, but they are not real You think that I am happy, but I never am.

You all have friends, ones who are special, I know people, but they don’t know me,

they know the facade I sit and wonder, does anyone know?

Does anyone know how I feel inside

Can anyone see the pain I hide?

I sit alone,

I watch you with your friends and families.

And I wonder, what is it like?

You talk to me and I talk to you,

but none of it means anything.

We all go home, and once again I am alone.

Do you know that I am alone?

Do you think that I go home and am not alone?

Do you even care?

You all think that I am happy, no concerns in the world.

I wish this were true.

I have no one.

No one to talk to.

No one to sit and laugh with.

I sit alone.

Won’t anyone help me?

Won’t anyone come and break this loneliness?

Break the silence of my life?

I don’t know what to do, where to go.

I just don’t want to be alone.

No more.

 

Estara

Romance with Loneliness

you give me that feeling again like you always do your always there to remind me of you
and like the disease that make me sick your also ingrained in me your what makes me tick. i’ve tried to run and tried to hide find someone in whom i confide but still you drag me back to your cold embrace socially awkward is a hard thing to face. different, scorned and cast aside my thoughts shift I
withdraw inside a soul on the fringes that withered and died. no hope for today and no hope for tomorrow a familiar drone is this bitter sorrow. this
agony knows no relent this longing for more and the need to vent, the will to go on nearly spent. You want to scream you want to shout but in the sea your voice drown out happiness it seems is a reasonable doubt. But i Drag my feet and keep pressing on night they say is darkest before the dawn. Greet the morning with a “i wish i died” sleep at night to escape the pain inside pulling me forever down into your abyss such is my romance with loneliness.

paul