Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

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Poems by Cumhur Topbas

Lucifer

Lucifer, the god of light,
Or the prince of dark night.
Reveal me true nature of your kind,
The secret among all these shadows you hide.
Long lost from the memories of most,
Old world is gone, woodlands are gone,
None left from the spirits that rest in the trees.
And nothing can be done to make it undone.
Even birds sing different songs now,
From the long lost past,
Only circle of day and night
Remains unchanged

  

Dancing in the Moonlight

Dancing in the full moonlight
Like non among the mankind
Full with lust and emotions
Ready to burst into
A flame of endless passions
Brighter than the stars
In this night full of moonlight
Innocent as the rain and yet full with vain
A soul full of cracks, but strong as rocks

  

Love of Freedom

A breeze whistling over the branches of trees,
Giving soft touches to the leaves.
A lion hunting in the open wilderness,
Proud and strong with it endless glories.
An eagle flying over the mountains and seas,
Beyond the all earthly worries of our lives.
A star in the dark sky, a beacon for the tired souls
I want to be all, and ask for all
As I want to be free and whole.
A weight equal to what once Atlas,
Had shouldered with his great might

 

Early Days

Childhood is a spring breeze
On one can sail distant lands with dreams
Every coming year holds a fresh wonder
You can see heroes everywhere

Youth is an untamed steed
Everything beyond the horizon
Still awe-inspiring and new
Blessed with loves and ideals
Time goes by at an otherworldly gallop

These first years a cradle for the soul
A harbor sheltered from the storms of life
To love, to be loved and to discover are the greatest joys of all
Biography

36 years old, amateur Canadian poet and artist also a finance professional, real estate investor and entrepreneur, residing in Toronto, ON, originally from Istanbul, Turkey.

Favorite poets Lord Byron, Edgar Allan Poe, Bernard Shaw, John Keats… take inspiration from classical works and mythology, first time submitting my work to a journal, never published before

 

Address: 32 Spencer Ave, Unit 209, Toronto, ON, M6K 2J6

Phone: 647-765-5545

Email: cmtopbas@gmail.com

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Slither

A fictitious face.

A muscle ache,

with each smile.

Debilitating the soul with no disgrace, God, don’t let this effect my child.

 

It slowly slithers into life.

That evil little devil!

Consuming the soul with one huge bite. Taking us to unknown levels.

 

Hidden stomach knots.

So twisted I can be…so I’ve learned.

Oh, How I once was….so hot I burned.

Oh, how the tables turn.

 

How I envy thee.

Mother, Father, Sisters and Brothers.

Being his She,

Showing the world how your lovers.

 

A numbing venom for the love of “life”. Making it harder to fight it.

A funny thing, that life.

Some can’t handle it

And prefer to bite it.

 

It’s grip constricting and choking,

Consuming the soul more so than body.

I will keep it from showing,

Escaping to my world of being naughty.

 

Oh how I imagine a life that’s not mine.

Hoping one day it will manifest.

Telling everyone I’m just fine.

I “really” do love the sunshine!

Acting normal just like the rest.

How are you? I’m just fine!

At my best.

 

A fictitious face.

A muscle ache, with each smile.

Debilitating the soul with no disgrace, God, don’t let this effect my child.

 

-Lisa at California

 

Just wrote about how I tend to hide the extreme sadness that loneliness brings.

I’m not terrible looking. I once was considered a social butterfly and always had people around. Somewhere that changed. I know now that I have had close friends that have gone through the same experience. Never told a soul.  I have no family. But I have my daughter. And I hope to fight it for her.  And hope she isn’t affected in the future.

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I love you

But you don’t even know me

you can’t even see me

you will never say my name

but you have caused me so much pain

always in vain I’m praying that just maybe you will call

but you never do

just once to say I love you

I pray so much so I can say I love you too

 

God send me an angel to heal my broken heart,

and my tired soul. I was not meant to be alone

God please send me an angel to save me from my self

I am stuck in my own private hell locked up in this cell of loneliness

Send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes and to change my life

 

Resignation

resignation sets in I feel I’ve given up, I don’t know where I’m going what I’m doing

has god abandoned me or have I abandoned him and why does the feeling of non- existence washes over me again and again I feel my substance is empty I don’t know whether to let go of this or stay this face is so dear to me I can’t bear to let it go not yet not today not tomorrow why can’t I feel myself why cant I feel another person I don’t know how to live how to move how to write what to do in god’s name what am I supposed to do so that I don’t drown in self absorption what words can I speak or write that have meaning where do I put my tears how do I cry them so that no one sees where do I stuff my hearts disappointments how do I hide the truth how do I welcome death after this matter crumbles into dust where will my soul lift what should I do now this beautiful soul has me trapped I look into his eyes and I can’t bear leaving  leaving that thought can’t bear the pain maybe it’s the right thing to do why don’t I know

the leaves were orange yesterday and now the trees are blooming the time slips through the unlived moments the pain fills the synapse  the thoughts weave the blanket I sleep under every night they keep me cold and frightened and I wake up without god alone in my bed just me and this day like a stranger in the door I can’t welcome

I rest with my fears they are my  dreaded companions I feel trapped because I recognize the truth and it overwhelms me because I know that life is a flickered piece of dust in the workings of the universe the struggle weaves its thread into the quilt of millions of sighs every day it intersects the cries of bliss it disappears into the abyss yet nothing really goes away everything is right now in this moment the world was born and died and I saw it all and now I can’t live the moment because the moment carries the message of death like a “photograph that stops the flow of life” the winds carry my heart to you and you don’t know that it just passed you as you were looking out the window onto the highway my heart flew by and smiled it knew you for a brief second and then you were gone I don’t want you to be a memory a part of the past I reflect on another lost face in the sea of experiences

M. M.

 

Hard Pressed to Find a Smile

eating a pizza and ice cream again
trying to watch Hogan’s Heroes at ten
getting more and more blue
with every romantic scene
when you’re hard pressed to find a smile
once he was young, nothing stood in his way
with a smile on his face, till the day trouble came
and never did know that this was the day that his life would be radically changed
with thirty years gone, you long for the past
the feelings gone that only God knows
tranquility that knows, no words can describe
when the next meeting comes they all laugh at his jokes
and the doctor he says I think you’re doing just fine
but he knows what he needs that he’s not going to get
cause the doctor does not have the time
his cell phone goes off, he shuts off the alarm
it’s a reminder to take some more pills, will it help
to forget that the phone is not ringing for days at a time,
but to remind him again that it’s time to remind me again
but you know the Word can change all that
the memory of life that the Word gave you
and every day you try to recapture
recapture the life that’s still hoped for
and now your life really gets in the way
life out there, and life in here, it gets in the way
still hoping for a life with no more tax
cause you’re still smoking, you’re the smoking flax
and there are times when you’re a lone warrior
screaming siliently, I’m so tired
who’s out there? is anyone there?
continued in chapter 7!
some plateau is too big, too long
how long have I longed for the edge

by chuck L