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Poems by Keith Atkissoon

Another windy day

 

What’s the ocean for but to stare out over

Huddled and cold, my hair blows and twists

Gulls pour up the cliffs, keeping silent today

Some hover and watch me from a distance

Some dive and head out over the crests of waves

Skimming the cold current

They steal my wind

The wind that draws me closer to the edge

Do they see my eyes blurred by tears?

 

The wind blows hard against my face

Reddening my cheeks, I shiver in the cold

Even the breaking waves have gone quiet

A mournful uneasiness over the sand

Is no one laughing today?

I hear nothing but another windy day

 

The whitecaps strum a silent song offshore

Sailboats glide slowly miles away

And while clouds gather, shadows grow long

Then a grey-deadened sea follows the sun

As it continues to vanish past the horizon

Bringing a gull-empty sky and whispering tones of sirens

Who cried the sea?

Was it me?

Not only me, but many more, the many who

Gaze out over the water every day, wishing, hoping, and praying

For the future to come, or for the past to return

To an indifferent sea, it’s just another windy day.

 

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Seeing my friend

 

Not me ,by me

Beside the sweet mist

Me, myself, my thoughts can’t resist

The vision plays out some every day

Is there anybody there? Listen I say

I’m waiting for a friend, a still empty chair

Can see them so clearly, me sitting there

Our voices, the song, and dripping good times

A neverland appears when I open my eyes

Things that aren’t real, rarely surprise

 

I need to go back to what I said before

My beautiful friend never comes through the door

To sit by me, and pay me some mind

Or give me a call, to just take the time

I see what’s there and it’s none of your mind

My friend’s soft words, they remind

Of lives that we lived and loves long ago

Tell each other stories of childhoods ago

 

I am my best friend, the only one I know

The one in the chair?

Their names’ alone

This so special bond, between twilight and dusk

As a stilted connection, and is so and such.

My friend just blurred, this thought crossed my mind

The time we next meet, I will find

The chair still empty, that’s not what I see

I see a friend

But I’m talking to me.

 

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A Day of Dying

Lying awake trying to push the memories away

The stupid things I’ve done

The stupid things I’ve said

The life I’ve missed out on

The friends I’ve disgusted,

How they got tired of me

The only one who ever wanted me

I wish I would die.

 

I see my face

I see my frame

I scrutinise ever aspect

Is it really that bad?

I turn away in shame

Nobody can want that

Why won’t I die?

 

I try to speak but I stumble over the words

I want to speak but my mind is blank

The people I hate

Make me feel like shit

But I can’t interact with the people I like

The one’s I want to be with

Could never want this

I think of the one that did

And I wish I was dead.

 

I’m cursing myself

I was rubbish at this

I was useless at that

I should not have said this

I wish I’d said  that

 

If I didn’t turn the wheel

Would I be saved by that tree?

A little swerve

That would be the end of me

 

There’s no one else here

No love, no child, no friend

A simple meal for one then

I think of her again

There’s no one out there

For me to go and see

I just want to fade away

 

Trying to push the memories away

Trying not to analyze the day

I groan in anger and despair

My fists pressed against my head

The life that’s gone

The life that’s ahead

The only one that wanted me

I try to sleep

While I wish I was dead.

By Sudhakar

I Am Alone

By Douglas L.R. Hauge

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Once upon a time I was not alone

I remember the joys of family

I remember childhood friends from a cherished past

I am alone

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Will there ever be another day of happiness in my life?

Will there be a day when I will always have friends who care?

Will ever again the words be spoken to me, “I love you”?

I am alone

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I want to give my love

I want to care about someone else

I want to care about others

Most of all I want to be wanted

I am alone

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My father is gone, my mother is gone

My wonderful wife is gone too

My daughter, oh what painful choices she has made for me to witness

Will that pain of despair ever end?

I am alone

.

I look at my hands and I look at myself

I look at my things and what I have done

I love this single human being who takes care of all that is me

I realize that my existence itself is a treasure

I am alone

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This treasure that is me is very good

It is the gift of my life from my parents

They were good too

They loved me

I am alone

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I do not know where they are or if they see me

But I know that I must care for the gift they gave me

A gift that my wonderful wife so much loved

I am worthy to live

I am alone

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There must be a reason for the state that I am in

But I do not know what it is

Maybe I should not know

I know not what the future holds

I am alone

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But the gift that was me that I was given

Is a precious gift that I must love and care for till the very end

And I must vigilant to touch the lives of those who may need me

Just a smile, a question of caring for someone else from me

Can make all the difference there is

I am alone

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To be alone is to be like a soldier on the battlefield

Care not for myself and I will fall

Care for others, help others

And there is not more joy that I could bring to another or myself

I am alone but we are all one

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The stars in the sky

The trees that grow

The birds that sing

The fish that swim

My brothers and sisters that are mankind

We are all one

We all struggle for this precious life

Love them and all that live

Realize that truth

And I am no longer alone

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Hear a reading of the poem by the poet here.

Loud Silence

What can I do when the silence sets in

So deafening I can hear my heart beat

Its more frightening than it has ever been

Once again I retreat

 

 

From life, filled with shame and a tear

Needing a hug a friendly face, a smile

Needing someone near

Even if it’s only for a while

 

 

I shout Hey I’m nice, loving and kind !

Nobody’s listens and even the silence is too loud

So what’s the point of trying to find

A place to belong, to feel proud

 

 

Of who I am and how far I have come

The highest of hills and the deepest of seas

Impossible to imagine for some

That I did it all, survived, with ease

 

 

But the price I pay is steep

Lost myself, but make others smile

Me, the fighter, inside I weep

Longing to belong, if only for a while

 

 

I despise the silence but it comforts me as well

Safe from hurt, I ignore the chains

And the emptiness, no one can tell

That I feel this way, that the longing remains

 

 

Why can’t they see that I’m good and loving and kind ?

I guess it’s me who blocks their view

The one thing I’m looking for I can’t seem to find

What the Hell am I going to do ??

 

 

I open doors and lead the way

To my heart, my soul , me !

But no one never seems to stay

I look around , no one I see

 

 

I must be doing something wrong

To end up in the place I am

Too difficult , too weak, too strong?

I’m trying the best I can

 

 

To make others stay, to show I care

It works for a while and I am free!

But when I look again, nobody’s there

Yeah, it’s my fault I guess, it must be………

 

 

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Since way back when it’s sometimes seems my closest friend. It walks with me down the halls. It’s even the pictures on my walls it follows me everywhere I go. It has helped my love for you to grow. Loneliness makes my mind aware just how strong the love is we share. Loneliness is what I feel with out you it’s something I hope you feel too. So when you think of loneliness don’t feel so bad loneliness may be the best friend we’ve ever had.

 

By Keith B