Hello Most High its me again
I’ve been praying for years and I still don’t have a life, love and friends
Everytime people came into my life they tried to use me or abuse me
Most High Please tell me why
For my soul is crying
And my faith is getting weak
Trying to hold on to life
Help me please!!
Come hold my heart because there is no one in my life
Please tell me that everything is going to be alright
And I’m so lonely
Could this just be a test?
A storm that will pass?
Or is this a lifetime of pain?
My mother use to abuse me mentally and physically
Everytime I cried out “Please love me!”
She would just laugh at me
Brothers and sisters over the years joined in to hurt me
It made them smile when I cried or got angry
The last person I had left was my father
After a couple of months he showed his hate for me
I remember getting real angry saying ” You’re all I had left! I needed you! Why are you doing this to me!”
Most High you remember when I had to cut them out of my life 7 years ago
The demons they obviously enjoyed within themselves was slowly killing me
To this day I still cry so that I wont become angry and bitter
Trying to heal the deep scars that are deep within my mind and heart
But Most High I cannot heal without you
Please answer my prayers
You created me
I pray that you created me to help others in this cruel evil world
And to be free, to live, and be happy!
Forgive me for begging for that is my soul crying out to you
I love you with all my heart
All I have is you
Please don’t forsake me