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A Day of Dying

Lying awake trying to push the memories away

The stupid things I’ve done

The stupid things I’ve said

The life I’ve missed out on

The friends I’ve disgusted,

How they got tired of me

The only one who ever wanted me

I wish I would die.

 

I see my face

I see my frame

I scrutinise ever aspect

Is it really that bad?

I turn away in shame

Nobody can want that

Why won’t I die?

 

I try to speak but I stumble over the words

I want to speak but my mind is blank

The people I hate

Make me feel like shit

But I can’t interact with the people I like

The one’s I want to be with

Could never want this

I think of the one that did

And I wish I was dead.

 

I’m cursing myself

I was rubbish at this

I was useless at that

I should not have said this

I wish I’d said  that

 

If I didn’t turn the wheel

Would I be saved by that tree?

A little swerve

That would be the end of me

 

There’s no one else here

No love, no child, no friend

A simple meal for one then

I think of her again

There’s no one out there

For me to go and see

I just want to fade away

 

Trying to push the memories away

Trying not to analyze the day

I groan in anger and despair

My fists pressed against my head

The life that’s gone

The life that’s ahead

The only one that wanted me

I try to sleep

While I wish I was dead.

By Sudhakar

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Other People’s Lives

And when someone talks about their children

The things they did that weekend

They played or cried or were told off

I smile

Inside I die

.

Then someone mentions their holiday plans

Pack up the kids and the other half

Get away for some family fun

I give a smile

But I feel like a shut in

Inside I die

.

Then someone talks about their exciting love life

Date upon date

Week after week a new man from the net

“You’ve got to get on and find a woman” they say

I’ve tried and I’m not wanted

Inside I die

.

Then a girl talks about trying to see her boyfriend

The effort she makes to see him

The travel for the long distance relationship

That’s great and I smile

Will anyone make an effort for me?

Inside I die

.

Then someone talks about their abuse

The violence, fear and cheating

The years it’s been going on

I’m not like that

So much for being a nice guy

Inside I die

.

When the unpleasant, dickish and annoying

Talk about their lives

They have children, husbands or wives

The worst find and keep someone

And I’m forever alone

Inside I die

.

My explanation. I can go through all this in one day. It makes me feel so empty. I feel my life has been wasted. I feel I’m rubbish. How undesirable must I be if those people from the last two verses get partners?

Poems by JD

Gray Death
The warm colors of fall have faded
Now the death of winter has raided
The first flakes begin to fall
I hardly notice them at all
White tears falling down from the sky
Why, oh why do the Angels cry?
Can they see through the sky so white,
The pain that plagues day and night?
“This gray death shall consume us all,”
On the icey winds the Angels do call
So as your body begins to numb,
From your mouth a white fog will hum
A piece of your soul on Angels’ wings will fly
Leaving your body behind to die.
Whispers of the Wind
All has come to twilight
Soon the fallow of night
But still I waited
Breath baited
Answers, the Wind does hold
Secrets untold
I hear its beckoning when the darkness falls
“Pain” are its calls
The Whispering Wind has long since faded
But here I stay, breath baited
The Sea
I don’t care what you say
Your words like pebbles thrown into the sea
Washed away
They didn’t even touch me
Lost into the shadows below
Settling as far down as they can go
To far to swim, you should know
But down to the bottom and back I go
Try me
Others took their hit
They made a puddle a sea
That’s what I make of it
Back down, but others will come
The sea will condemn them foe or friend
Some pebbles will join the others… some
Untouchable, I will remain, until the end
Phantom Father
You danced through my childhood, ghostly
Memories of you, I never had
You wish you were there, regrettably
You my Phantom Father
I learned to do without
I never felt sad
Unwanted love you sent about
You my Phantom Father
Now your back to make things “right”
Like a cow to the slaughter, you fallow the latest fad
I never needed you to tuck me in at night
You my Phantom Father
Give up the fight
You want a second chance, sorry but too bad
Your time has come to twilight
You my Phantom Father
Give me peace, now is the end
I’m sorry if I made you sad
All your love back to you I send
Goodbye to you,
My Phantom Father

Deep Dark Secret

I don’t know why

I’m feeling down today

I wish I had wings

So I could just fly away

Away from it all

That brings me down

If you told me to smile

I’d be wearing a frown

Sometimes I sit and wonder

What it would be like on the other side

Where I can do my own thing

Where there are no rules to abide

Would I be missed if I died today?

If I cross over and I go

My Deep Dark Secret

No one would know

So I pray for guidance

I don’t want any regret

All the things you’ve done for me

I assure you, I won’t forget

So this is it

I just needed for you to see

What was going on inside my mind

What was deep inside of me

By Artemis Mann

Maybe Tonight

Maybe tonight is the night

When my pain will cease for good.

Maybe tonight is the night,

When I will end it; maybe I should.

Maybe tonight someone will notice

The chains that I am bound by.

Maybe tonight all this pain,

Maybe tonight, maybe it’ll all die.

Maybe tonight I will find happiness,

In a place far from here.

Maybe tonight, finally,

It’ll all become clear

Maybe tonight I’ll pick up my blade,

And put it to my throat.

Maybe tonight this will mean something,

This poem I wrote.