Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

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Memories

Memories flow like butterflies. They pass by quietly, take me by surprise. Our wedding day, the trip together, our first love nest. Watching you leave me in the cold morning with a kiss. What a pleasure, did you know I used to watch you through my window until you disappeared? I think you knew because you would wave at the air. I would wait for your return smelling like roses and with a home cook meal.  I was pregnant! a surprise our first son what a joy!. He was perfect and full of energy. I loved you so much, but I didn’t know what love was until we parted. you with another wife and me with another man. What happened to us?.  What kind of pain was that.

I never been the same, never will. This loneliness is killing me. You will always be, my first love my only love. Years passed and it still hurts to think about our life together and how happy and perfect it was. I pray for you every night and for me. I need to find peace in this life without you or your love. To make peace with loneliness.

I look at my reflection in the mirror of time and I’m slowly dying with sadness and regrets. Nobody loves me, nobody wants me, I’m a shadow, a ghost, I go unnoticed and ignored. The world goes on without me like I never existed, why is loneliness so cruel.

I will love you forever and after death. I will give half my life for your embrace. My body craves your arms around me, to hug me, comfort me and dry my tears. I need your embraced now and forever.

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Lonelier Now

I’m lonelier now than I’ve ever been before

yet everything is back to normal.

but now I know that I’ll never be with you

and my heart is dying, slowly, slowly, slower than everything

my soul is hiding behind it’s own shadow

and I am lying dead on the street

you were the one that I loved, or so I thought

I’m lying drowned in a pool of tears

don’t leave no one can die from a broken heart,

because i did, my body is still here

my mind is here to but what’s the use

my heart and soul are dead, shot, forgotten

all by loves twisted since of humor. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m sorry

I couldn’t live as friends. now I pay the price

but did you have to do me this way, painful and cruel

or could you have let me down easy so I had a chance to come back

I don’t trust anymore. because I trusted you

and trusting you led me to my death

so I live alone, un-trusting, cold and bitter

but you will never know it was all because of you so what good is it, what does it matter it doesn’t anymore,

but you do know that we will never be the same again

and that is all you will know

~Dan

Cruel Life

By Amy Friauf

Sleeping in each others’ arms,
The world so distant and deaf;
Life is so cruel even when great–
And I’ve no clue why I left.

Your breath on my cheek
Soft kisses on my neck,
If this is an unholy sin,
Then, God, send me to Heck.

 

My Prayer

Hello Most High its me again
I’ve been praying for years and I still don’t have a life, love and friends
Everytime people came into my life they tried to use me or abuse me
Most High Please tell me why
.
For my soul is crying
And my faith is getting weak
Trying to hold on to life
Help me please!!
.
Come hold my heart because there is no one in my life
Please tell me that everything is going to be alright
I’m hurting
And I’m so lonely
.
Could this just be a test?
A storm that will pass?
Or is this a lifetime of pain?
Why me?
.
My mother use to abuse me mentally and physically
Everytime I cried out “Please love me!”
She would just laugh at me
.
Brothers and sisters over the years joined in to hurt me
It made them smile when I cried or got angry
.
The last person I had left was my father
After a couple of months he showed his hate for me
I remember getting real angry saying ” You’re all I had left! I needed you! Why are you doing this to me!”
.
Most High you remember when I had to cut them out of my life 7 years ago
The demons they obviously enjoyed within themselves was slowly killing me
.
To this day I still cry so that I wont become angry and bitter
Trying to heal the deep scars that are deep within my mind and heart
But Most High I cannot heal without you
Please answer my prayers
.
You created me
I pray that you created me to help others in this cruel evil world
And to be free, to live, and be happy!
.
Forgive me for begging for that is my soul crying out to you
I love you with all my heart
All I have is you
.
Please don’t forsake me
.
Dalija

Love One Last Time

All I want is a sign of kindness and love,
But all I get are mean looks.
It hurts so bad that everywhere I go,
Hoping to be accepted,
I get rejected.
They all look at me the same way,
With eyes full of contempt and resentment
But maybe I deserve what I get
For being a cruel, cold person
I drove everyone away from me,
But only lately have I realized that they were never really there for me,
Each one had hidden intentions,
All meant to sacrifice me-
I feel so empty and numb,
So lonely and dejected
Everyone says they love me,
But I know better than to believe them
Broken promises and rushed lies,
To cover up their faults,
And I stand here,
With my heart in my hands
Bleeding, nearly dead,
Yet how is it that I’m willing to let it get broken again?
I know it won’t survive another wound,
So how is it that with you
I’m willing to take that chance,
When I’m pretty sure I won’t survive the fall?
So much pain,
Leaving me numb,
My heart shuts down
Yet I’m able to love again
Will you be the on to show me what I truly want?
Will you help me soar or let me fall?
Will you be there forever or for just 10 seconds?
I’m terrified to love again…to let my heart open up,
But I don’t want to miss…all that I could spend with you…
No, even if it doesn’t work out,
It won’t be time gone to waste,
For I learned to love…
…One…last…time…

Shadow’s Death