Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

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Poems by Lori Kay

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For so long I wander, lost to myself in the forest of Life.

It is a rather panicked way of life.

Have you ever searched for your Self so?

For so long I sit perplexed at the table of Life where lay the puzzle pieces of Me.

It is a rather frustrating way of Life.

“This puzzle must have come to me with the wrong pieces,” I cry aloud so many times.

Have you ever been so perplexed over Who you are – inside and out?

For so long am I hungry to use the ‘stuff’ inside me.

It is a rather lonely and unsatisfied way of life.

“To hunger for use and to never to be used is the worse hunger of all.” (author unknown)

Have you ever been so hungry?

Oh for the day,

I find myself and my insides become calm, I become faith-full on the path.

I make great progress on the puzzle of me; enlightened at the table.

I am filled, the ache of disuse abated.
From that day forward,

I take each step with dignity, calm and content in the forest.

I connect each puzzle piece with patience, uplifted at the table.

I apply with privilege the genuineness of me, satisfied with the ‘stuff.’
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Lori Kay, 2010

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When the struggle to survive is over

And you’re left alone to redefine yourself

Where does the definition come from?

When the struggle to survive is over

And you’re left with a certain kind of emptiness and calm

Where does the reason come from?

When you no longer have to fight to push your body and mind through each moment

Where does the fight go?

When the struggle to survive is over

And you can finally breakdown and cry

What will stop the tears?

When the struggle to survive is over

And you finally let down the anger you held so long

What do you hold now?

When the struggle to survive is over

And the fear that fueled your inner fire is snuffed out

Where does the flame come from?

When the struggle to survive is over

And adrenalin and cortisol no longer run through you every minute, every hour, of every day

And your body comes to a complete stand still, a fall down and stay down

What will bring it back up again?

When the struggle to survive is over

And fight or flight becomes stay and love

And you’re left with a sadness undefined

Where does the happiness meet up with you?

Lori Kay, 2009

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Slither

A fictitious face.

A muscle ache,

with each smile.

Debilitating the soul with no disgrace, God, don’t let this effect my child.

 

It slowly slithers into life.

That evil little devil!

Consuming the soul with one huge bite. Taking us to unknown levels.

 

Hidden stomach knots.

So twisted I can be…so I’ve learned.

Oh, How I once was….so hot I burned.

Oh, how the tables turn.

 

How I envy thee.

Mother, Father, Sisters and Brothers.

Being his She,

Showing the world how your lovers.

 

A numbing venom for the love of “life”. Making it harder to fight it.

A funny thing, that life.

Some can’t handle it

And prefer to bite it.

 

It’s grip constricting and choking,

Consuming the soul more so than body.

I will keep it from showing,

Escaping to my world of being naughty.

 

Oh how I imagine a life that’s not mine.

Hoping one day it will manifest.

Telling everyone I’m just fine.

I “really” do love the sunshine!

Acting normal just like the rest.

How are you? I’m just fine!

At my best.

 

A fictitious face.

A muscle ache, with each smile.

Debilitating the soul with no disgrace, God, don’t let this effect my child.

 

-Lisa at California

 

Just wrote about how I tend to hide the extreme sadness that loneliness brings.

I’m not terrible looking. I once was considered a social butterfly and always had people around. Somewhere that changed. I know now that I have had close friends that have gone through the same experience. Never told a soul.  I have no family. But I have my daughter. And I hope to fight it for her.  And hope she isn’t affected in the future.

Loneliness is a Sly Poison

Loneliness is a sly poison.

It creeps over your body like an oil slick on the ocean,

Slowly engulfing every pore, quietly penetrating your heart,

Permeating your inner core, your very being.

It leaves you feeling cold and empty inside,

Isolated, out of touch with others,

Passionately wanting to reach out to someone,

But you are choked out, unable to do so.

ur heart cries out with pain, and no one listens.

Loneliness is paralyzing.

As the busy world goes rushing by

You continue to go through the motions,

But you are disconnected, unable to relate.

Your sorrow is impenetrable.

Your spiral of despair begins to gain speed,

Life looks dismal and bleak.

I want this insidious poison to leave me

But it hangs on, a dull deep ache,

That screams in my head.

Lonely Heart and Lonely Nights

As darkness looms I gaze into the candle light ….

My heart feels the pains of wanting you with me each night

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You came in to my life and brought a calm in my heart….

But now it just seems we are always so far apart

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The brightness, love and happiness   you brought to my life….

Has been a source of releasing so much of my strife

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I miss the times you reached for me then pulled me ever so near……

I miss the times you used to say “I love you “so softly in my ear

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Thinking back on how long it has been….

I daily long for the time when you kiss me once again

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My body aches to feel your arms holding me tight….

And just knowing you are there all through the night

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Realizing we both have our own life struggles and pain…

Through these days we must not let our feelings wane

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Even though we talk each night and each day….

My soul still aches with our being far away

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I not only need you… but want you with all of my heart….

And pray to God for a day when we are no longer so far apart

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I am here for the long haul to see this thing out ……….

And in hopes that you are having no doubt

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Just know that I have grown to love you and always will….

For there is a place in my heart that only you can fill

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By: Cheryl Stephens

I Wish That I Could Hate You

It now has been so far away
Yet it seems like only yesterday

You turned and walked away
Like I was nothing

There never was a place for me
In your world of make-believe

A little bit of something
Would have been better than your nothing

And while yes, it is so true
My heart still aches for you
I wish, that I could hate you

This little girl, just a dreamer
A lost and lonely gypsy,
Now so afraid you were just another schemer
Do you really even miss me?

My soul, I bore open to trust in you
Yes, my heart still aches for you
I wish that I could hate you

And right or wrong, I carry on
As I still want for you
Even as in your world
Is where I no longer belong

My heart still aches
To see your smile
To feel your touch
To stay awhile

And pretend again for a moment
That you really did care
Cause baby, I miss you that much

I wish that I could hate you, but I don’t
I could have loved you, but you would not let me
So I won’t

And now it is that I have found
As my heart still aches for you
I can never really, truly, hate you