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Someone’s Thoughts

I am alone
loneliness is part of me, part of you
the pain, the sorrow, the agony does not exist in me.
I am free, and within my freedom I fall in the abyss on nonexistence,
the darkness covers every path I take, every dream I create,
the never ending void where nor me nor you can penetrate.

you say you suffer…
you say you are in pain…
you say you want it to end…

I envy you my brother,
I wish I could feel what you feel…
I wish I could even be…

…Agni

 

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Resignation

resignation sets in I feel I’ve given up, I don’t know where I’m going what I’m doing

has god abandoned me or have I abandoned him and why does the feeling of non- existence washes over me again and again I feel my substance is empty I don’t know whether to let go of this or stay this face is so dear to me I can’t bear to let it go not yet not today not tomorrow why can’t I feel myself why cant I feel another person I don’t know how to live how to move how to write what to do in god’s name what am I supposed to do so that I don’t drown in self absorption what words can I speak or write that have meaning where do I put my tears how do I cry them so that no one sees where do I stuff my hearts disappointments how do I hide the truth how do I welcome death after this matter crumbles into dust where will my soul lift what should I do now this beautiful soul has me trapped I look into his eyes and I can’t bear leaving  leaving that thought can’t bear the pain maybe it’s the right thing to do why don’t I know

the leaves were orange yesterday and now the trees are blooming the time slips through the unlived moments the pain fills the synapse  the thoughts weave the blanket I sleep under every night they keep me cold and frightened and I wake up without god alone in my bed just me and this day like a stranger in the door I can’t welcome

I rest with my fears they are my  dreaded companions I feel trapped because I recognize the truth and it overwhelms me because I know that life is a flickered piece of dust in the workings of the universe the struggle weaves its thread into the quilt of millions of sighs every day it intersects the cries of bliss it disappears into the abyss yet nothing really goes away everything is right now in this moment the world was born and died and I saw it all and now I can’t live the moment because the moment carries the message of death like a “photograph that stops the flow of life” the winds carry my heart to you and you don’t know that it just passed you as you were looking out the window onto the highway my heart flew by and smiled it knew you for a brief second and then you were gone I don’t want you to be a memory a part of the past I reflect on another lost face in the sea of experiences

M. M.

 

One Last Everything

I’m falling,
Falling into an abysm,
Falling through shadows,
Through darkness,
Through anger,
Through pain;
Falling into the consuming flames of doubt.

The coldness keeps me alive,
Alive when I’m wishing I was dead.
One last breath of hope
Lifts me over the mist.

The past now gone,
Gone with the happiness, the joy.
The future lies just a minute away.
A minute away from loneliness,
Just a minute away from death.

No more sadness,
No more sorrow,
No more problems,
No more life.

One last goodbye,
One last smile,
One last tear,
One last love,
One last everything.

by Andrea Fernández

Definition of Loneliness

Loneliness means having to make a decision on the lesser of 2 evils

Loneliness is having a shot of whiskey and a .38
and trying to decide which is better

The whiskey is temporary,
The .38 will cure all

Loneliness-the great abyss
One final darkness-the pain is gone

I once stood in the beautiful light of relationships
Now I stand in the darkness of solitude

Once again I will cry
Thank God, only once I will die

All that keeps me in check
Is the thought that God will not forget

The sin that I contemplate tonight
The thought that I could take my life

Save me, save me
From this loneliness that enslaves

Change

A day and a night to talk me out of my reverie
Some simple lies that help me breathe
A clearer path to make me see
A look at the madness living within me

Happiness is all I want
Care is all I need
I just meant to vent some frustration
Getting a few to bend knee

I might have gone too far
I can’t say I miss her
She just wasn’t me

As I slip into this dark abyss
Fear me now, this is not who I’m meant to be
Care you not of my condition?
I would not heed thee

Haven’t you ever felt this way?
So used and torn
All you can do to stay one way

I don’t want to do it
I’m ready to change

So take me out of this torture
Relieve me of this pain
All I need is a little hope now
A light to guide my way

by Prozac