And when someone talks about their children
The things they did that weekend
They played or cried or were told off
I smile
Inside I die
.
Then someone mentions their holiday plans
Pack up the kids and the other half
Get away for some family fun
I give a smile
But I feel like a shut in
Inside I die
.
Then someone talks about their exciting love life
Date upon date
Week after week a new man from the net
“You’ve got to get on and find a woman” they say
I’ve tried and I’m not wanted
Inside I die
.
Then a girl talks about trying to see her boyfriend
The effort she makes to see him
The travel for the long distance relationship
That’s great and I smile
Will anyone make an effort for me?
Inside I die
.
Then someone talks about their abuse
The violence, fear and cheating
The years it’s been going on
I’m not like that
So much for being a nice guy
Inside I die
.
When the unpleasant, dickish and annoying
Talk about their lives
They have children, husbands or wives
The worst find and keep someone
And I’m forever alone
Inside I die
.
My explanation. I can go through all this in one day. It makes me feel so empty. I feel my life has been wasted. I feel I’m rubbish. How undesirable must I be if those people from the last two verses get partners?
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i know its easier said then done, but i like your poem very much and all the feelings you put into it.
just expressing yourself the way you have makes you a winner 🙂
I can sympathize with you. I often feel the same way about other people around me. I’m a terrific person, an amazing catch and yet, still alone. It feels like I’m doomed to a life of loneliness and there’s nothing I can do about it. It’s hard to keep hope.
hey sean….u represents a lot of people in this lonely world…each person a new story but the pain is same lOnliness…i wish we have the capacity of being happy irrespective of anything or everything…but…no world is full of sorrows ,fears,selfishness…no way to escape no way of freedom no way to LIFE …may god bless u and give u the courage, patience to wait for ur good times if it ever comes during this life span.
Wow….I totally feel you. I feel like I’m so nice to everyone and yet everyone shuns me…especially my neighbors who won’t even wave. Is this how today’s society has become?
It’s neverending, there’s no escape and it grinds me down.
It’s not even being about a great catch (I’m a decent person), there are people clearly worse than me who are attractive to someone and are wanted.
U R VERY RIGHT , I WONDER WHEN PEOPLE SAY BETTER BE IN LOVE ANND GET HURT RATHER THAN NEVER EVER BEING IN LOVE AT ALL……HONESTLY THEY DON’T WHAT N HOW IT FEELS BEING DUMPED ,,,,
ur poems represents me …..a lot….n i ask myself am I really a bad person…if so when and how
reading the poem, ur comment and the comments above….we are all ‘nice’ people, good people and yet alone, feeling not wanted. Did you ever think it is them that has the problem? I’ve always walked this world alone and since I was a child I’ve realized that there are more bad than good. When you are not like them (the bad ones) they think you think you are better, they get intimidated b/c they know they are wrong and yet someone is looking at them and seeing them. Chin up. There is someone for everyone, or maybe not. It’s nice to be loved but it is better to love. You are all strong and I know this b/c it takes a strong person to be nice. Appreciate the moments you have that are good and try and see through the bad. I know it’s hard but you are changing people one person at a time, even if you don’t realize it. You are touching people’s lives in a positive way and we need all the good ones we can get. Smile and know that even though everyone else seems to have someone they are just conforming and are probably not really happy. they settled that is all. Good luck w/ your lives. Peace.
I found a comfort in reading this. What’s it they say, misery loves company? As with previous comments, think I’m a decent, hard working guy, try to look after myself, but am always alone… It seems if you’re a right nasty piece of work, but can talk-the-talk people accept you. There are times I think it would be better to be stranded on a desert island, at least then it would make sense feeling this way…
I can identify with your poem. I have been single for 5 years despite my best efforts. I have tried out too many online dating sites to believe in them anymore. I am always wondering, “when is it going to be my turn?” Every New Year I think THIS will be my year. Ha, ha… I am even thinking that now!
Thanks for the comments people. It’s the first poem that I’ve put out there. I’m ‘glad’ people can identify with it, I wish you didn’t have to but life is a pain.
It’s nearly Chrimbo. Time for more soul destroying loneliness and going home alone.
I can really relate,I had a gf before but she left me for her bf.Loneliness is very powerful,and
I always wonder why is it the good ones who always end up suffering?
I agree with Jamie73 about misery loves company… I cried when I read this poem…. All my friends and family have moved on and I am the only one who is single and cant get anyone. Though my family and friends love me , I still feel left out and odd ….A person to be pitied at…. When I found this site I really felt better…..
It’s amazing how I was reading my own pain through the words of a stranger. It is strange how the common feeling of loneliness brought us to this site..to this poem..and somehow brought a feeling of comfort. I am not alone in the darkness..thank you for sharing. You affected my world with the sharing of yours.
I can relate all too well with your poem. I am a single mother of three. I have been alone for almost 5 years now. I have tried dating but all are so shallow and not looking for a real relationship. I have spent nights crying myself to sleep. I miss human touch from someone who cares. My kids are there but there are times when they can not give me what I want and need. I am in health care I give of myself all the time. No one really knows the loneliness I hide inside. They see a strong independent woman. They see the side I let them see. I have only one close friend and she is just starting to see the real me. She tries to help by inviting me out but its always with her bf and I’m always the third wheel. It just reinforces my loneliness and reminds me that I don’t have somone special in my life.
It’s so utterly soul destroying when life rubs your loneliness in you face. It just makes me want to stay in and fade away.