Web of Loneliness Poems

Poems of the Lonely

Monthly Archives: November 2010

Resignation

resignation sets in I feel I’ve given up, I don’t know where I’m going what I’m doing

has god abandoned me or have I abandoned him and why does the feeling of non- existence washes over me again and again I feel my substance is empty I don’t know whether to let go of this or stay this face is so dear to me I can’t bear to let it go not yet not today not tomorrow why can’t I feel myself why cant I feel another person I don’t know how to live how to move how to write what to do in god’s name what am I supposed to do so that I don’t drown in self absorption what words can I speak or write that have meaning where do I put my tears how do I cry them so that no one sees where do I stuff my hearts disappointments how do I hide the truth how do I welcome death after this matter crumbles into dust where will my soul lift what should I do now this beautiful soul has me trapped I look into his eyes and I can’t bear leaving  leaving that thought can’t bear the pain maybe it’s the right thing to do why don’t I know

the leaves were orange yesterday and now the trees are blooming the time slips through the unlived moments the pain fills the synapse  the thoughts weave the blanket I sleep under every night they keep me cold and frightened and I wake up without god alone in my bed just me and this day like a stranger in the door I can’t welcome

I rest with my fears they are my  dreaded companions I feel trapped because I recognize the truth and it overwhelms me because I know that life is a flickered piece of dust in the workings of the universe the struggle weaves its thread into the quilt of millions of sighs every day it intersects the cries of bliss it disappears into the abyss yet nothing really goes away everything is right now in this moment the world was born and died and I saw it all and now I can’t live the moment because the moment carries the message of death like a “photograph that stops the flow of life” the winds carry my heart to you and you don’t know that it just passed you as you were looking out the window onto the highway my heart flew by and smiled it knew you for a brief second and then you were gone I don’t want you to be a memory a part of the past I reflect on another lost face in the sea of experiences

M. M.

 

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Reaching Out

When I reach out
please reach back.

May I hold your hand for a while?
Would you like to share my smile?
Would you help me paint the day with it?

Is it just me
or does the day
seem grey?

 

Reaching

I never know when you may leave
Every breath I worry
It is not fair, I can not have you
They Do not even want you, they just do not want you here.
I may die without you , every bit of me inside
Should I put my life with you, in your hands
Sometimes I wonder, Do you care? Do you worry of me?
I am often left behind, never thought of, no mind.
It is money, it is greed, that drives you away from me.
How much is enough, I will never no,
I wish I could go back, and save the man I love
But I am late and he is gone, and I am alone.

-Amy Brown

Can’t You See Me Through the Rain

Have you ever felt like there was no where to run?
No one there, when all you need is a shoulder to cry on?
Where can you go when you get caught up in the drift of everything that is flowing through your head?
When all the pain comes rushing in and all you do is cry out to be saved, but there is no one there to feel your pain.
You feel so faraway from the world and you are lost in thought.
Just remember that you will find your way home.
You are going to make it alone.
All you need to do is say, that you can make it all the way, through thick and thin, you can make it in.
YOu are strong enough to mend, even if you feel afraid hold on tighter to your faith, and live one more day to make it through the rain.
Do not give in to all the things that pull you down.
You will make it safe and sound.
Keep pushing on and you will see that everything you need will come, if you just keep going a little further.
When people come to push you down don’t be afraid because you can make it all the way.
Don’t hesitate, just walk through the gate and you will see that you have made it all the way through the rain.

The Rain Doth Comfort Me

By Maria O  November 25, 1999

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Tho I remember the sweetest touch of them all

I pray the voice of the rain doth not stop today

For this morning is of silent voices flying through

My mind’s atmosphere like the breath of a child

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‘tis the gasp of my mother & child…of those

Who have fallen, yet my stride takes heed

With the ear of a fawn listening for a twig’s

Aide memoire of fear & a secluded thicket

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If only this sun would not come through the veil

Of soft grays to burn & wither the innocent souls

In my valley today…for now I am quiet & pensive

Within these strange walls that bleed oblivion